It's hard to be comfortable with yourself when you're a Hybristophile Feminist who knows the s**t she's getting into, and just doesn't give a damn (and yet I'm always screaming at the poor victims of horror movies to act a little smarter...)
I may as well be the embodiment of hypocrisy.
On another note...
Dementia's GONE.
as in, poof.
vanished.
I have raked (good lord that was a poor choice of verb) up every inch of my brain and come up empty-
HEY. I'm still here!
... sorry, Minerva.
and while K reports that Dementia had dropped in for a while (possibly to terrorize Satan... though whether it be in violence or just nagging him to f**k her, I'm left in the dark about) but then she skipped out of that body too.
Oh, and Lucius' last name.
It's D'Angelo.
is my life turning into some sort of cheep Horror/romance novel?
I hate people who get off on serial killers. Fuck Tumblr for allowing that shit.
ReplyDeleteIf she's gone, good. She won't be able to hassle you any more.
Oh, and d'Angelo means "son of Angelo". Angelo is a Latinate male name.
DeleteThe Italian translation of it is "from The Angels".
DeleteAnd I'm pretty disgusted with myself. I'll just blame it on his (goddamn motherf**king) charm. He's even got K falling for him. I don't condone his actions, I don't make up excuses for what he's confessed to doing. he's a screwed up piece of s**t- and so am I.
I understand that he's probably going to kill me once he gets bored with me. (IRL, I have a great sense of humor- he likes my crappy jokes that I make up on the fly) I understand that he's never even going to think about loving me, that he can't understand the concept of love and I can't "change him".
I'm a horny as f**k young adult, and he's the strongest male on the block. It's evolution at work, nothing more.
(I'm trying really hard to convince myself. can't you tell?)
No, the Italian equivalent phrase for "from the angels" is "degli Angeli", as in "Maria degli Angeli" (Mary of the Angels.)
DeleteAngelo is an Italian male name. Therefore if you wanted to refer to Ciro, son of Angelo, you would say "Ciro, figlio di Angelo." "Di Angelo" is eventually contracted into "d'Angelo" and you say "Ciro d'Angelo." So it means "son of Angelo".
The things I've found online have all said that D'angelo means "From the Angels". of course, the 'Net is known to be wrong... though I got this from many different sources.
Deletedid they ever say what Angelo itself meant? my birth name (which I won't disclose here) refers to a calm stream (which I definitely am not.). Belinda (also an Italian name) means "beautiful snake". Names themselves can mean things. Other names can refer to myths, or astronomy- my OCs Vega and Minerva derive their names from this (Minerva is wicked smart, and named after the Roman Goddess of WIsdom; Vega is a star in the Summer triangle, a constellation that includes two other stars- her husband Altair, and her (stillborn) son Deneb. Furthermore, her daughter Lilith doesn't appreciate the Muslim culture she was born into- and defects to the antagonist's side when she gets older.)
I'm sorry if I sound like a patronizing know-it-all, but I'm just trying to prove my point. I don't mean to offend you, and I fully acknowledge that I'm being stubborn.
It stands that d'Angelo does not mean "from the angels" in Italian. For one, the plural is inconsistent. "Angels" in Italian is "Angeli".
DeleteBelinda has no certain origin. There are two possibilities: that it's from the Germanic Betlinde, which is likely from "beraht", meaning "bright", and "linde", meaning "soft". It could also be a combo of the Italian word "bella" and the Spanish "linda" which means "pretty". It is predominantly of English usage. "Bella serpente" is the Italian phrase for "beautiful snake" if you preferred that.
However, Minerva, Belinda, Altair, Deneb and Lilith are not related to the name Angelo.
I'm not denying names can have more than one meaning. My name is Alexandria but I go by Sanna. Sanna can be a name on its own and means "true". Alexandria means "man's defender" and it is a city in Egypt and also Romania.
I hereby concede to your point.
DeleteDon't beat yourself up, everyone's screwed up in some way. Just don't do anything stupid and get yourself killed.
ReplyDeleteAs for Dementia, any ideas for someone else trying to exorcise an unwelcome persona?
I wonder if an exorcism would work on her. she's an artificial Soul- not quite a Ghost. S fully confirms the effectiveness of exorcisms- he's been through a few. and he reports that they're VERY painful for the Ghost.
DeleteAnd on the contrary, I plan on making sure Satan never gets bored of me. it'll keep me alive, at least for an extended period of time. I don't have any genuine feelings for him- it's just lust. (hopefully.) And I don't mean I'm going to become his newest gun, shooting whoever he wants me to (and by shooting I mean killing). I don't want to get my hands soiled by becoming an accessory, or an accomplice.
If I do happen to slip and fall on my ass, you'll figure it out pretty fast. me going a few days without updating without giving a heads-up is one thing- going a full month without uploading anything is a sure indicator that I'm dead.
MAybe exorcism was a poor word. I'd thought Dementia was a split persona, not a being in her own right. Sadly, my problems are (arguably) living; it'll take more than an exorcism.
DeleteI might have to ask S about it. He seems to have a lot of... experience... with this sort of thing.
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