Not dead, just dying

So my professors must have met secretly and conspired against their students, because I am currently stuck under a mountain of research projects (Science) essays (english) practically a short story project based on a what if scenario (history) and... quadratic functions and all their nasty cousins (Math). I'm just typing this up quickly to let you all know that no, I'm not dead (somehow) and that it'll be a while before I update again. a long while.
and before you start blaming me, I got all of this all at once, so no procrastination was involved.
...

okay, maybe a slight amount was involved.

until I'm free,

Pandora

Falling down the rabbit hole

Alright, before I can explain to you just how panicked I am now, you must understand just how paranoid I've been as of late. My college campus has around three redheads- including myself, that makes four. Now, Lucius has made it quite clear that he goes after redhead girls (Which doesn't nothing to help my paranoia) so I've decided to keep an eye on my fellow minority girls.

One of them has gone missing.

I asked Lucius about it (K's been sick, so I've taken the time to keep her updated on what happens in our shared class- those conversations don't stay on schoolwork long) and he simply gave me a grin.

There is little doubt in my mind that she's now dead, or wishing she was.

as much as you may scream at me to go to the police, I simply cannot. I cannot incarcerate the host of a serial killer who is already dead knowing full well she herself is innocent.
In short, the moment Satan's friend turned on him was the moment he was granted immunity from the law.
I wish I could say I had a viable solution to this, but honestly, what authority figure would believe the inane ramblings of a college student on Souls and Possession and a serial killer that's evaded the law of two countries (he started over in the UK) since the tender age of seven?

nobody would believe me. even I have a hard time believing the world I have landed myself in is reality and not just some coma-induced hallucination.

I, hypocrite.

I know I've said before that I'm not really one for labels and titles, but one cannot express the sort of conflict I feel with abstract descriptions of behavior, so I'll just say it outright-

It's hard to be comfortable with yourself when you're a Hybristophile Feminist who knows the s**t she's getting into, and just doesn't give a damn (and yet I'm always screaming at the poor victims of horror movies to act a little smarter...)
I may as well be the embodiment of hypocrisy.

On another note...

Dementia's GONE.

as in, poof.

vanished.

I have raked (good lord that was a poor choice of verb) up every inch of my brain and come up empty-

HEY. I'm still here!

... sorry, Minerva.

and while K reports that Dementia had dropped in for a while (possibly to terrorize Satan... though whether it be in violence or just nagging him to f**k her, I'm left in the dark about) but then she skipped out of that body too.

Oh, and Lucius' last name.
It's D'Angelo.

is my life turning into some sort of cheep Horror/romance novel?

Uh... Thor 2 was great.

Went to see Thor 2 with K. She loved every second that Loki was onscreen. I thought he was more sarcastic than usual, but that's just me.
don't expect spoilers from me, but I'll give you this-
not everything in that movie is what it seems.

I know this is a personal post, but I consider this a personal blog, so...

Uh Oh

Satan's old buddy. remember him? the one who killed him?

Turns out he just transferred to my school.

And he's in one of K's classes!

To add insult to injury, it appears that he's started to hit on K (Who, if any of you need a refresher, Satan is currently inhabiting.)

If things turn out the way I foresee, I may need to become a meat shield within the next few weeks. Because once he finds out his old friend isn't technically dead, he may decide he wants to finish the job.

And I'm really attached to K.

WhatdoIdoWhatDoIDOWHATDOITDO

HELP

GET CONTROL OF YOURSELF!

I second that! You're worse than me!

 ...That really is bad.

ButstillwhatdoIdoIdon'tknowwhattodo!!!!!

SHUT UP AND GET A GRIP ON YOURSELF.

calm down and rethink your priorities- like, for example, this--

was it really wise to get attached to someone with MPD which just happened to actually be her being possessed by a bunch or people who were already DEAD? 

No... 

Case closed. You must get over your infatuation and see the bigger picture.

But I... I can't...

What sort of logic is preventing you from cutting ties with this woman?

Minerva, You're not Spock. I'm not Spock. This isn't just logic- this is emotion, something I've been trying and failing to suppress in favor of logic and just gave up on ever succeeding. And now I have a reason to hold onto those emotions... but it might be taken away from me in one fell swoop.

I... can't do this. I'm sorry guys, but this is everything for today.
I'll post the fragment of my story tomorrow. I Promise.

Results

Turns out I didn't even need to perform the experiment with S. All I had to do was ask.

Funny the way things turn out when you just ask, isn't it?

Shut up, Dementia.

Ghosts DO need to inhabit a subject that is emitting an EMF field. inanimate objects (other than electronics, of course) do not qualify for inhabitable bodies. as it is, I wonder what would happen if a Ghost attempted to possess an inanimate object... a doll, perhaps?
we've heard of haunted dolls. Malevolent Ghosts like these forms. but how do they possess a doll? is it just force of will? or is something else involved?

I mentioned earlier that there must be Demons. are these the Ghosts of Murderers, Serial Killers, Rapists, and other foul folk who just didn't want to stop even though they were dead? they take malevolence in the afterlife to the extreme. and from what I've observed of Satan, they don't seem to follow the rules I've laid out for Souls.

1) Satan didn't need to go through S's filter in order to find a new home in K. he just smashed right through and took over.
therefore, Demons seem to possess a greater amount of willpower than average Souls. Can being evil really make one that strong?
of course, evil is being used here as a relative term. really there is no such thing as good and evil- only those who follow a set standard of morals and those who don't. that doesn't make them evil, it makes them chaotic, uncontrolled, non-conforming to the whims of society and the expectations it has placed on their shoulders. they're, for all intents and purposes, rebels, even if they don't mean to be.
okay, self serving rebels would be more accurate, but you get the picture.

next...

2) Satan comes and goes as he pleases. while the other Souls who inhabit K only seem to surface whenever she's asleep or when she lets them, he can control her for an entire day, just on a whim. it doesn't matter what K wants, it doesn't matter what S wants, if Satan wants to dick around with her body and wreak havoc, he'll do it.

oh, and it seems he's taken a liking to me, because I remind him of his first girlfriend.

He doesn't like me though. weird. I certainly like him though... YUM.

Oh God, Dementia. Don't show me that!


Er...

Where was I... oh yes, on to my third observation.

3) Satan seems to retain all of his memories. in addition to this, he also doesn't seem to be bound permanently to K's psyche. while I haven't witnessed this myself, he often implies that he could quite easily leave her and just inhabit me instead.

Which would be quite... unusual.

Let him do it. please?

NO. I refuse to indulge in your sick fantasies, Dementia. now go away.

for those of you who are wondering, Dementia is actually... well, a sort of seed in my head that sprouted and took root. she was never actually a Soul.

Thank you for your consideration, Pandora. truly, I'm warmed by your appreciation of just what your genius has created. 

... 

... I wish I had my body back...

Oh do shut up. Pandora's trying to stay on topic here!

guys...

Oh, green's Minerva. yet another one, I know.

I just hope Belinda doesn't decide to take a little more control. That would be disastrous.

Unfortunately...

I apologize for not posting yesterday, but school is quite overwhelming as of late. I've been cramming for a few tests and finishing up projects- and my Dormmate is not helping.

as it is, expect something of a hiatus for two or three more days. I know this blog is young, and you are probably thinking that I don't deserve a hiatus at this time, but sometimes reality takes over and I have to re-prioritize my schedule and side projects. though socializing has never been a priority in my life, K has diverted my attention away from schoolwork.
My ADHD is not helping matters, unfortunately.

Until the ground stops moving under my feet,

-Pandora, Observer of the Unobserved